out of work at my part time job
(painting/remodeling/construction)
(yep, when i'm not painting,
i'm painting)
which means no money
and plenty of studio time.
large scale abstract textured work
beckons me.
is in the making.
i have been saving egg shells
for months for this one.
working on a couple of other pieces
to add to my as-of-late-neglected etsy shop
as well.
it has been fun experimenting
playing with acrylic, latex,
coffee, tissue paper, egg shells,
pulling paper off wet paint
to discover wondrous patterns,
embedding random objects,
dipping, stretching, dripping...
it has also been
a bumpy ride.
dabbling in doubt
and feelings of inadequacy.
stuck, staring at the canvas
for eternities.
for this too, i am grateful
for i have the privilege
of being an artist.
what excites you
and haunts you
in your work today?
oh, how i love all the textures you have shared here. so beautiful and inspiring. i’m certain your final entry for the art prize will be a masterpiece.
ReplyDeletei understand (deeply) the emotional struggles that come with being an artist, creating something new, trying to bring a reality to vague (or not so vague) artistic yearnings.
i am experiencing my own feelings of impatience, urgency, and swirling ideas. so much so that i can barely sit still. sometimes wisps of images come to me, and i don't know quite how to separate them (or combine them) enough to bring the design to fruition. currently, i have a very strong desire to create a certain piece. the vision is there, yet i can't figure out exactly how i shall go about doing it. so you see, dear friend, you are not alone...
xo
oh, dearest! so delighted by your visit!
Deleteintrigued by your dream piece.
i hope you are relishing the process,
and perhaps share more of it
on your lovely blog.
That situation you are in is at once filled with freedom and anxiety, I'm sure. If you can relax into the play of the creative process, the fears can drop away at least temporarily. Thinking of you and wishing all good things to come from this time! Cheers!
ReplyDeletei know your wisdom comes
Deletewith rich experience
and it never ceases to inspire
hope.
wow! i'd be terrified to tackle something 8'x4'... i'm working myself up to 8"x10" :)
ReplyDeletei just love all the textures in your work... and esp. the eggshells :)
hope you'll share pics of some completed pieces...
oh, and what haunts me?? that i never capture in reality the really good ideas/images i have in my head... *sigh*
the journey is laced with fears
Deletethat i work to unravel.
i will share the completed pieces
as well as in progress work.
don't you think
there is beauty to be found
in the way reality
touches and transforms
our ideal work?
the beauty in the imperfections
of the human hand.
well, i'm struggling to see it, frankly, having posted the finished poetry piece today... my cack-handedness with paper, paint, and glue, and my frustratingly bad left-handed writing... *sigh*
Deletei feel the poetry soooo deeply (and perfectly), but the outer representation is such a poor expression of the feeling... to me, it's ALL too imperfect... *a deeper sigh*
Anca, your texture play is amazing! These images cause me to look closer. I even found myself reaching up to touch them (ha, through the computer screen doesn't work!). Your work inspires me.
ReplyDeleteexcites: that I'm playing again
haunts: I wish I'd been more serious with my work when I was younger
oh, carole, your words
Deleteso sweet and kind
nudge me into hope.
excited that you're
enjoying play time
again! don't fret
about the past.
it made you exactly
the lovely artist
you are today.
love your textures and subdued.. almost white colors. And self doubts spur artists on to experiment and explore and search for their voice.
ReplyDeleteoh, white! i can never get enough of it.
Deleteso we shall continue to dance
with doubt and exploration.